hurting

i like one of my close friends but hes 20 i used to have a crush on him but i thought i got over it and i was over it for a few months but lately ive been haveing dreams of him saying i love u to me and i dont no im just confused and hurting cause i no that it will never happen i just needed to talk about that no need for advice or nething
Jill

have you told him about it?? if u need someone to talk to u can talk to me

he'd go to jail.

no i'm to afraid of what he will say and if it will be weird to be around him i just want to be friends but my heart says i love him. and not if i didnt ttell lol

lol yeah, i guess!
i get where you're coming from with this though
like i've gotta thing for this guy, i don't love him or anything, but, he's 21, HAS A STUPID GIRLFRIEND, and doesn't live here.
but i guess what hurts me is just like knowing hes with someone..yet tells me he's got feelings for me. like, if you're with someone, there should be no one else you have feelings for you know

i understand that your right he should only have feelings for the one hes with then after she goes he can have feelings for u

yeah, but still. like its not fair to me, or his girl

life isnt fair nothing is fair

yeah, but..that's life haha. it's not gonna be fair, it's not gonna be equal, its always gonna be tough. you stick it out though, there are pleanty of other things that are gonna bring you down harder, that actually mean more.
like seriously, some guy that's hurting you...its nothing compared to what you'll eventually have to face in the real world
you know? like yeahhhh, its bothering, but think about it..you're young, there are other people you'll have some type of relationship with before it all really starts to matter

yeah i no and i have kind of gotten him out of my mind cause i had to help my friend toilet paper her ex husbands trailor :d and my othre friend im worried about cause shes making herself throw up and is getting WAY to thin and i may be getting hipnotyzed SERIOUSLY it will be so cool

..you think it's cool to have an eating disorder?...

no my friend thinks its cool and im just worried about her

" i may be getting hipnotyzed SERIOUSLY it will be so cool"
thats what made me question that haha

hahahaha o well see im very messed up and no doctor can figure out why im terrified of men and sleeping so my mom is taking me back to the slitting wrist doctor and seeing if she does hipnotizing i cant wait lol

you're only human. we've all got our issues. you're not "messed up"

i no its just that i dont no its almost like something happened to me either in a past life or wen i was really young and my mom and friends and me want to no why im the way i am