he's my fantasy

I just need to tell you guys about how i feel !!!! ... you guys understand ... so i was texting my friend jessica yesterday and it just popped out of no where ..... he's my fantasy ..... which when i think about it he is. He's cute, hillariouse, sweet, and he tries. whish to find a guy that really TRIES to be with you even though he knows how hard it will be is the best thing a girl could ask for. and he's a dork ! ... how cute XD ! ..... he's an amazing kisser <3 ... and when i'm with him and i see him i don't think about all the bs in my life right now .... just latley i've been going through with my aunt going in and out of the hospital and 2 heart surgeries in the last 2 months, my grandmother's freaking out about that and some other stuff, my other grandmother that i was supost to see ... i just wanna shoot her but not that she dies so she can feel the pain ... and my dad started chewing agian, my school isn't doing as good as it could, and so that would leed to my parents getting mad at me ... and when i think about jeremy i feel like i everythings just right ... and i see god's way of seeing all of this ... that things happen ... people die .... people go away and they need time to cope .... it's my fault that i haven't been doing good in school and i need to work on that ... and when i'm with jeremy i know that and i'm ok with it because god has a plan ... but then i think why do i only relize that when i'm sinning ? ... i'm not allowed to date but yet i feel closest to god with jeremy and without jeremy i could give a (Censored) about god .... i don't understand it, but i'm just glad that i'm living my wildest dreams with a guy ... it's a perfect relationship and i know there's onle a 1/100 chance that i'll stay the rest of my life with him but i don't care .... i don't wanna take any chances with this relationship ..... no risks that might lead to breaking up ... i just with we could have that moment away from life, way out in the medow of yellow and white flowers in the middle of nowhere, just me and him .... for that one moment of silence we could create love just by looking at eachother and hearing eachother's thoughts ... don't ever leave me ... don't break my heart .... =] ... but that could never happen ...... wishfull thinking always getts me in trouble XD .... but what i wanted to get to was that it's getting easier to say that i love him more than it has before ... but i'm not sure yet .... i'm just gonna let love take it's place in hurring it

he's my fantasy
leana <3

awww That's great. Just be careful that you don't lose the trust of your parents =]. And if you ever need any help with school we're all here for ya!

AHHHH ! HE SAID "I LOVE YOU !"

OMG! SWEET! LEANA'S ON A ROLL!