What are you thinking?

I dunno if I can do this anymore...
Freakin' tears.

I couldn't even get the words out a few minutes ago...
Maybe I'm just not the one. Grah.

Wow.. School is only like a week away. Yikes!

Well that didn't work out too well.
Dad's angry because I said we were wasting time looking back on something we did.
Ironically enough, we were working on trains that used the "Hurt Connector".

And contrary to what I had before on AIM, rants are not a good thing. At all. xP

So much for the "Lucky Tuesday"...

What I've learned in Health class so far:
90% of the time, the answer is "D) all of the above"

...Yeah. This could be bad. Very bad. -__-

Onto other things...
-Elluminate works.
-Mrs. Charlton could be worse, but she isn't.
-Spanish teacher: Meh, okay I guess.
And.
-My Technical Writing teacher's name is Mrs. Andrew. -____-
..Oh God, you have a weird sense of humor. >_>

^ Hahahaha. Tori, My sister is discovering the same thing. I hadn't remembered that until she mentioned it the other day. They apparently just don't want to pick hard questions. Easy A+. xD


I feel slightly better this morning. Well, physically. I don't feel as mentally drained, but I'm still tired of this. I don't know if I can keep doing it... I just think... it's too much on my heart. And brain, for that matter. =P


And Madi, Mrs. Charlton is the shiz if you like sports. She fought me all of my last two years that I had her over hockey and football, and even college basketball when 'Nova beat Pitt. xD

^Jackie she won't be the shiz for me then. Haha. I'm a soccer girl. =P World Cup is ova. (-__- Spain...) XDD
I'll watch football because my family does, but I don't understand it. Haha.
Oh well. I'll deal. =P

Some ranting thoughts..
Why am I so angry? Why am I so depressed, upset, emotional..and confused? I put a smile on for everyone and break down later..and nobody can tell what goes on behind closed doors. This isn't me. I just want it to stop. Be over with. Grah. / End rant.

Now, to end on a positive note. Though it may be hard to cover that one xD
Read-through of the script for the play tomorrow. Airsoft on Saturday. Missions service on Sunday (YAY DRAMAS). And. Uprise on the 18th. *crosses fingers* I hope.
And I'll be 16 on the 23rd. WH00! =D

Mmm. exactly one week till school. Public school. But no. Not regular school. Night school. I guess I can say this now. F*ck you Pacyber. To think George Bush wrote that "No child left behind" Thing. Hah. What a joke.

Its amazing how the butterfly effect works.

Nice cool evening again... starting to feel like Fall. I like this.

And entire NS mapping / train charting is done. Dad was much easier to work with tonight. Score. xD

Now, if my right leg would stop bothering me I'd be fine. This is the worst of the last three days.
Oh well. Tylenol time. xP

All day alone. Well, not really. Babysitting my three youngest siblings. But alone as can be. =P

Ballroom dancing tonight though. I did find out, there's also going to be Minute To Win It competitions. I love that show. xD

Honestly...I have to be a big girl, and move on. It's not the easiest. But it's not fair to either of us. And you'll still be my best friend. But, I can't keep holding you back. =/
I'm sorry...I'm gonna miss it so much, but it's for the best...
I feel terrible saying this. And I'm sure sure how to take it all in. All the ups and downs...the "I love you's". It's all going to be gone. =/
Should I be happy that the bulk of the drama is over..or should I be upset that I'm letting go of someone who's changed my life so much, made me realize that I'm truly beautiful..and I don't need to put on a show for anyone?
I have no idea. But I'm thinking that this will be hard to start off. And it will get easier..day by day. I'm strong. I can take this.

All I want is for him to be happy. And I think it has to be without me in the picture. At least, not as more than a friend.

And to him: I'm so sorry. I really am..

New, helping clean toilet blocks everywhere: Pancakes.


Only one person will ever get this joke. xD

^Two actually. Bear knows. I was laughing so hard I had to tell him. xP


Showah time! I'm still in the t-shirt and shorts that I slept in. I'm sucha slob. xD
Pink nail-polish is so not me.. I like the dark red I have on now... But that pink is sparkly and smexii. Think I'll use it. xD

Four hours and counting. *Cringe*

Hmm...

I'm thinking. Madi and Adam are so openly pathetic, it's hilarious. xD


I'm also thinking. I'm exhausted. Legit. Just knocked out. I didn't leave the party until 10:45. Didn't fall asleep until at least 11:30. Woke up at 10:45 AM. And still. Am. Tired. xD
However, I suffered through some country dance moves, dancing with my ex-boyfriend, and dancing with Ellie's boyfriend (that was only a suffering because I was laughing so hard. xD)
While I discovered that Tyler and I are the best ballroom dancers there are.
But we suck at the tango. xD

Yup. It's all good. =P

I'm thinking Jackie is sadly right. xD

I hate when someone comes home and has to have a long drawn out conversation with you. Dern.

/Back to typing. =P

Darned mother for not leaving today.
My fingers need a break.
My head needs a break.
My heart needs a break.

Oh, screw it, my whole body needs a break.
Nap time! Legit. I'm going to catnap before dinner.

Oh, and to top it off? I get to get up by 6 AM tomorrow to get ready to pick up the Ryder Truck and pack up stuff at my grandma's for the dump! Yippeee! -.- -.- -.-

Freakin' life. xP

NS Locos Facebook Page wrote:NS SD60M # 6785 is in new NS paint ,NS 6759 went In for paint.

NO. NOT FAIR. NO.

The ONLY Conrail engine I've ever been in, is getting barfed on. Crap...

I was covered in dirt. That was the must disgusting garage I've ever seen.

Apparently, cats love me though. Stray ran right up to me and wanted me to let it inside. Let me pet him and everything. I'm naming him Rocky Jr. xD

soccerchik22 wrote:Apparently, cats love me though. Stray ran right up to me and wanted me to let it inside. Let me pet him and everything. I'm naming him Rocky Jr. xD

Cats can always see the welcome mat on your forehead. They sucker you in and don't let go. xD Nice name, BTW. Original too!


http://games.espn.go.com/flb/boxscorequick?leagueId=22006&teamId=2&scoringPeriodId=147&seasonId=2010&view=scoringperiod&version=quick
Beating dad 822 to 617. HAHAHAHAHALOL.

^ Too much enjoyment from that, I know. But I love being a spoiler with my team that's out of playoff contention, beating his which is in the race. xD

The Trainmaster wrote: Cats can always see the welcome mat on your forehead. They sucker you in and don't let go. xD Nice name, BTW. Original too!

Apparently so! This one tries to sneak into my grandmother's house daily. It's so funny. If you leave the screen door open for more than half a second, he runs into the house and you have to carry him back outside. I feel bad, but my grandmother cannot have another cat. xD And thanks! I try to be original. ;]


Home babysitting my three youngest siblings again! Too bad I'm missing Tyler play the tamborine in front of all of church. xD

I'd look for someone who does then. He's that friendly, he deserves a home. Like Rocky Sr.! xD

soccerchik22 wrote:Home babysitting my three youngest siblings again! Too bad I'm missing Tyler play the tamborine in front of all of church. xD

♫ Hey Mr. Tambourine man, play a song for me. I'm not sleepy, and there is no place I'm goin' to. xD

Oh well. Church soon. Cat food pick up on the way home, and that should be about it for the day. Though, if dad needs to go somewhere else that'd be grrrrrrrrr-eat! xD

He does. But so many people in southwest Philly take in a cat, and then dump them again. So I really don't know many people in there who'd be willing. =\
And silly song. xD

I hereby introduce MMM.

"Multiple Marathon Messages/Messaging." xD