What are you thinking?

Today. was...interesting. xD

And I seriously love my haircut (and the bleach) . I look a little scene now. xD Which definitely fits the way I dress better than my hairstyle before, so that's a gooood thing, haha.

And I'm legittt like, so tired right now. I think I'm going to bed without brushing my teeth, and that's so unusual for me. I usually like, freak out if I don't brush my teeth, but I'm so extremely exhausted right now that I don't. even. freaking. care. >.>
That's all.

It started out as a feeling, which then grew into a hope.
Which then turned into a quiet thought, which then turned into a quiet word.
And then that word grew louder and louder..till it was a battle cry...

Why...why do I love you so much? It makes no sense...no sense at all..like. I can't sleep..because I'm thinking of you, and wondering if you're thinking of me.
And I think about everything we've gone through. We've both cried, both had broken hearts. And yet we still try. Still. And this is just one of those things where everything tries to get in our way, but we still keep pushing through.
...Or am I just. Not right..

I'm not understanding anything anymore.
I don't know who I am..because of everything everyone is putting me through.
I'm starting to think there's something terribly wrong with me. And I deserve all this.
And I have no idea which side is up, and which end is down. My left is my right, and my right is my left. I don't know anything anymore.

Flor Hermosa wrote:And I have no idea which side is up, and which end is down.

Odd how that reminded me of The Who's 5:15. =P


Either way, it's Friday! Weekend on the way, with decent weather! Nothing to do, but still.

Wish dad would leave today, though. xD

It's my grandmother's fault.
It's my grandmother's fault that my mother probably will not exit this house today.

She went ballistic. My grandmother. She basically said she wasn't gonna let us clean out the house anymore, she was gonna exterminate it herself. (Hahahahahaha lololololol.) Little does she know, her little plan will just take her back to square 1.

Time to call Ty and rant for prayer. xP He can't sleep over and help us unless my grandmother re-agrees to empty the basement and the garage.

Grah. How is it that every team is in the trade market, except the Pirates? >.<

Oi vey. >.>

But mah huuur is cool, at least. xD

I strongly dislike people in my family sometimes. -_-

Hmm. I'm lovin' Jaime's profile piccah. Girrrrrrl I love youuu! And your smexii voice. xD


I'm still exhausted though.
Memorial service tomorrow. Then I don't have to grieve in public anymore.
It'll be nice to see Meilyn though! And Dan, of course. Lesse if he misses me after two days like he said he wouldn't. xP
Does this statement even make sense? "If you had a cell phone and I could text you, I'd miss you more often."
Uhm. Hello? If I had a cell, you'd be talking to me every day, therefore, you wouldn't have time to miss me. xD
My friends are weird.

Jackie, your voice is like, awesome and all cute and stuff. ahaha <33 I love youu too. :]

Dude. DUDE. Lawrence is here. xD

Amanda's playing guitar. Woo! <3

Okay. You. DON'T. Do that to a girl. WHATTHEFREAKISWRONGWITHYOU? I MEAN REALLY?

I'm so..done. My heart's recieved enough blows. Done. DONE. It's been broken to a point where YOU and your CHARM can't and WON'T fix it. I turned my phone off on you. And I'm not talking to you anymore. Done. And I'm gonna be sorry for a while. But I'll get over it. I'm done. I couldn't be off any worse without you than I am with you.

I'm sorry, boy. I can't do it anymore.

thug lifee
haters gonna hate yall

Going for a walk. At 1:40am? Yes. Don't judge me.
I'll be back around 3. Sounds fabulous.
I won't sleep. But hey. I didn't sleep last night. This will be good.

Hm....
Yknow. I really don't care ^.^ And I hope you got the hint when I ignored your IM's. And turned my phone off on you.
Yes dear. Ima be over you like *that*.

I played your game. Now you can play mine.

I'm up too early. Cuz I'mma have a long night tonight.
Thankfully, this memorial for Mommom is supposed to be more of a celebration than a "funeral" type of thing. Less tears compared to Wednesday! Yay! =P

Plus. Celebration means bright colors. Meaning, I don't have to wear my flowery belt-dress that's black/dark purple (which apparently Dan thought was a really cute dress?) annnd, instead, I can wear a shorter skirt and a bright colored top! FTW! xD

I'm so low. =P

Let's see...one trade has accomplished all this:

Ryan Church - Traded
Bobby Crosby - Traded
Ryan Doumit - Benched

I'm happy about this Chris Snyder trade.

Woo Hoo! I love it when I'm not awake 20 minutes and 2 trains go by.
With 3 outta 4 engines on them still being in Conrail paint!

Bright colors are FTW... for multiple reasons. xD

Really? Flirting with me? I'm getting pretty creeped out. Like, why so sudden? You always denied it before. And now, you're all over me. Really. Wow. Get a life.

My back hurts.
Shoveling a grinded up tree stump is no fun. Lossa woodchips...

HAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Ilovemysister. xD

So, to recap:

Out: Octavio Dotel, D.J. Carrasco, Javier Lopez, Bobby Crosby, Ryan Church

In: Chris Snyder, James McDonald, John Bowker, Andrew Lambo, Joe Martinez, Pedro Ciriaco

Me likey.

I know. I know I freaked up. But I can promise you this. I am done with all that. And if your the right person you will know exactly what im talking about. I will prove to you, im done with all this.

Oh I hope Adam is talking about me... I would do anything for him... If only he would notice me... I feel invisible. He never talks to me and I'm too shy to share my true feelings for him. Time to go cry myself to sleep again...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE BROTHER!!!!! <3

I LOVE BEING A VEGETARIAN. I feel like I'm accomplishing something GOOD for once. XD

I'm watching Animal Planet. <33333333333333333 xD

Okay, so I miss you. Because you're currently in Maine right now, enjoying yourself on Bustins Island. And I miss you like crazy. I want us back, I miss us. Because you were everything to me. You gave me so much. I want that back. I wonder if you think about me? I want to know if you still love me like you said you did. And even though it's been over for two months, I still love you just as much as I ever did. And all I want is closure, if nothing else can happen between us. I just want to know what I'm not the only one in pain. I want to know that I'm not the only one that cries every night. I have so many questions, so many things I want to know...

Having a birthday party for mah lil bro todaaay with family and his friends. Should be a fun time. xD

^Hahahaha. Omg, Coday's lines in your signature.... xD


WOOHOO! Nothing. And I mean NOTHING. Beats skipping church and waking up at 11 AM. Absolutely nothing.
Don't get me wrong, I love church. But I needed those extra four hours after being exhausted for two weeks, physically and emotionally. =P

Youth group event tonight though! Might have Tyler over before? Partaaaay. :]

Okay, so honestly, I hate this commercial. >.>

HAHHAAH. Both of my brother's friends like me. Oh boy. -_-

I haven't been on this site for a while. >_>
Can't go to purple door..This sucks!

I'm thinking...

Sleeping in is greeeeeat.
And.
Boyfriend or not, Kiera's profile picture makes me jealous. :]